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If You Knew by ~Sanguise:iconSanguise:

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If You Knew

How would you feel if you knew?
Knew how I wished I’d never known you
Knew how much pain you caused me
How hard I try to replace you
How sad I feel around you

How would you feel if you knew?
Knew how worthless I felt last Christmas
When you gave me a book
And your new daughter gold?
How I gave myself a present
More scars on my wrists
To make the pain inside go away
Knew how horrible you made me feel
Last Easter when you gave me nothing

How would you feel if you knew?
Knew you made me take tons of pills
So I could be sane
Be happy
Knew how I wanted to die
Knew how you shattered my soul
Knew how you took my joy away

How would you feel if you knew?
Knew you were my inspiration  
How it was you who makes me write pretty poems
Knew how everyone knows
Knew how I read my letters in class
And my dark poems about you
Its all because of you daddy

Daddy, do you remember?
Remember the happy girl I was?
Remember how much I loved life?
Loved to laugh?
Was your best friend?
Do you remember that girl daddy?

Well daddy, she’s gone now
Mow I’m always sad
Now I hate life
Now I laugh to hide the pain inside
Now I hate you
Hate you for making me into this
Because daddy, you did this to me
And you don’t even know it
You don’t even care.
©2005-2009 ~Sanguise
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Author's Comments

a poem i wrote for my dad.

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*Bunnyfugger Mar 13, 2005, 5:05:02 PM
A solid indictment, its good to vent
Remember this though, "love yourself" do good things for yourself, take the time to do at least one good thing for yourself a day, you're worth it.
This is not "Don't worry be happy" crap
I was left by my dad, now I am a dad.
Your pain is real but remember so is your love and you deserve some of that from yourself along with the scars.

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"No time for the old in and out; I've just come to read your meter"
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~IvyLee Mar 13, 2005, 5:31:39 PM
this is a very powerful poem hun. I like how everything flows together....and I like how you use your words. :clap: nicely written.

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Midnight Blues
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~umluna Mar 13, 2005, 5:36:42 PM
That brought tears to my eyes... it's the common thought we all have to those who hurt us: do you know what you've done to me? :-( I love it though, it's really good.

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Thank you. We're all refreshed and challenged by your unique point of view.
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~Sanguise Mar 13, 2005, 5:39:32 PM
thank you! its good to have someone who understands!!!
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~Sanguise Mar 13, 2005, 5:58:50 PM
Thankyou!!! :hug: i wrote it on the way to the blueridge today.
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~greekfreak66 Mar 13, 2005, 5:59:28 PM
that was beutiful.... i can seriously retaliate, my pops was why i tried to kill myself, didnt succeed so i joined the military hopeing to get shot overseas.... the feeling still remains, and i still dream of death.. but that poem really touched me deep inside....

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why dont people live life to the fullest, instead they hide behind shields that keep them from all the fun, like skydiving without a parachute.... whats the matter with a little chance at death, if you dont have thrills you have no fun....
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~Sanguise Mar 13, 2005, 6:03:18 PM
thank you! im glad you can relate, and yet sad. but i wont give you bs over it, lifes life. my friend told me a funny saying; lifes like a dick, when it gets hard, fuck it.
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~greekfreak66 Mar 13, 2005, 6:04:49 PM
i cant really do that.. unless i was gay.... god im very glad im not.... eeewwwww.....

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why dont people live life to the fullest, instead they hide behind shields that keep them from all the fun, like skydiving without a parachute.... whats the matter with a little chance at death, if you dont have thrills you have no fun....
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~IvyLee Mar 13, 2005, 6:07:48 PM
you welcome :glomp:

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Midnight Blues
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